So Here We Go!

So growing up I loved to pretend that life was a musical, well I kinda still do, but I can distinctly remember sitting out in the field of my elementary school day-dreaming about my classmates bursting into song and dance. In all of my musical stories and day dreams I was never the lead. I was always the funny-sassy-best friend. The girl that could not be bothered with the main story line. I was the girl that had a sarcastic glance, a quick witted comment, and only had attention when she wanted it. I was happy to be in the background of someone else's story. 

When I watched Disney movies I never day dreamed that little birds would clean my kitchen (though as an adult that sounds awesome!) or mice would make me a dress for the ball, I was never that girl. I would rather be Stephanie Zinone in Grease 2, the kick-ass girl who is different from her friends and owns it, or Ramona Quimby who was a little bit of a trouble maker, a 3rd grade rebel. It was always more important for me to be interesting than to be pretty.

Maybe that's why I am 36 and half and single, maybe there is a lot more to the story. But here is what I am willing to tell you today: I am starting a journey. I have decided to be the lead character of my life. I don't think I will ever be the girl that dreams of being a princess, but I think I can harness my inner Stephanie Zinone and Ramona Quimby and make 36 and half interesting. A middle aged leading lady.

I have put a stake in the ground. I have told the random strangers that will read this as well as my family and friends that I want more. I am prioritizing myself. As a life long chubby girl I am saying publicly that I am going to try to change my life. This is very scary! Because as the girl in the background no one really cares if you succeed, but if you are the leading lady your success and failure are the story. So Here I go. I am going to be the story and I promise success, failure, and an interesting? ever after.